Can't Stop Won't stop
Wow October blew by, I really don't know where the month went. I do know we all had a great time together from the corn maze to just all snuggling up on the couch together to watch Sesame Street, we truly are a family that knows how to enjoy each other company and cherish the time we all spend together.
Evan Bryan is developing so fast I can barley capture it all let alone find a moment (besides now) to take it all in. This month alone he has; taken his first step, said his first word, learned who Lola is, learned who Papa is, stood up from a sitting position, had his first Halloween, stood alone unassisted and learned how to make the "Indian" sounds (woo woo woo) with his hand over his mouth. He also discovered Sesame Street, and boy does he love it, all the puppets and songs have him standing by the TV bending his knees bounding up and down as he dances along. Every time he hears the theme song he throws his hands up in the air and starts waving them. He is such a boy, Brenda says she can really tell a difference between Maddie and Evan at this age. Evan throws around Maddie's dolls, climbs up on everything and screams while he waves his hand or bangs things together. But as wild and crazy as he is he is also so so incredibly sweet, if sister is having a meltdown and crying Evan will freak out, kicking his legs and moving his arms, trying to get to her to see if she is ok. Melts my heart and make me proud at the same time.
Dad and Herc are great. Hercules has been loving the weather, and he spent a majority of Halloween in the front yard with us all dressed up as people walked by and petted him:) I have had a busy month, work travel, Man party, meeting Grandparents for lunch in DC, helping friends hang ceiling fans in their new place, Halloween decorations, school, the commute and the daily ins and outs
Maybe that's why the month flew by so fast lol i guess when your busy you forget to stop and take a look around to appreciate how far you have come, instead of how far yo have left to go. I spend a fair amount of time trying to think of ways to be a better parent, better husband and just "better" all around. As with anything there are "wins" and "losses" but I don't let it deter me I keep pressing keep reading, researching and exercising my mind and body looking for ways to improve. Especially for Maddie Bear, I pick her up and drop her off every custody exchange, and I'm the first one to see the pain, confusion or hurt that is sometimes in her little eyes. To say it bothers me is putting it lightly, as our relationship matures and grows ,just as we do; I look for ways to help her express her feelings and sometimes that means expressing them "at" me lol. Even though it may hurt me for a bit its still worth it, I don't quit I talk to her I tell her I/We love her. I really think it has made a huge huge difference in her adaptability and perseverance. I'm so glad I'm her daddy to I'm glad I'm here to try and help her I'm glad she has all of us. I'm glad that we all have each other and when one of us is down the others instinctively join together to help cheer up or comfort them.
I guess my point is never stop trying, I will never stop taking care of them all, looking for ways to be a better dad and Husband. That's what parents do, that's why its such a hard job you never really know if what your doing is the "right" thing. Were learning to follow our hearts and keep going no matter what:)